Woohoo!!! The end of midterms!
Last day of midterms today. What a relief! After 1 1/2 weeks of pure studying, finally got to chill today! :) Well I can't say I did well in midterms but hey I got through it. :) Its really stressful! Haha. Oh well, that's life. Hope i did better this time around compared to last semester. FInally got to unwind. Siyempre, tapos na (for now) ang sobrang pag-aaral and got to spend time with "pareng miguel". Sarap!!! :) And of course got to unwind with my friends. Thanks Nas, Coloy and Dinbo! Sobrang sarap mag unwind and not think of law school at least for a day or 2. :) Looking forward to the next gimmick/inuman/tamang chillax time. :)
*After several months of being absent from sports shooting, I'll get to finally shoot again tomorrow! Sana manalo!! Time to test the new lens and D200 in one of my favorite areas in photography! I'll be posting the pictures here. :)
Canon and Nikon : What's all the fuss about? :)
I used to be a Canon user and have 2 outstanding lenses that can basically capture almost everything. And now, I did the unthinkable, I'm a Nikonian. People keep on debating which one is better and having tried both, here's what I got to say about it: Both are GREAT!! Of course there are compromises but then again, its always a matter of preference. But though you prefer one over the other, it does not mean that the other system is not good. Here are a few comparisons between the 2 cameras that I have used (Canon EOS 20D and Nikon D200).
1. Both feels good in the hand since they're both made of magnesium alloy. The D200 is weather sealed though. :)
2. Both have ISO 3200 (really useful) but Canon has a better noise management.
3. Both are 5 frames per second (really fun).
4. 10 Mp for D200 and 8 Mp for Canon. Means nothing really if you print 4R, 5R, or even 8R.
5. Both have great lenses though I'm loving the 18-200 VR. :)
6. The lenses I used to have for Canon are sharper but the Nikon lens is not that bad and gets the job done. I'm not a pro or anything nor am I a photographer. I just love taking pictures.
Bottom Line: Both are great cameras. In the end, I realized that its all about capturing that moment, regardless if you're using Nikon or Canon. Its the picture that is the most important. :)
Post Midterms
Its been 2 weeks give and take since the midterms ended. I took me quite a while to recover from the frustrations that happened. I totally lost confidence in myself in the past few weeks but now I'm starting to regain it. Whew! The midterm exams was really draining, emotionally, physically and mentally. Now, I have recovered. I am so glad that I finally got to recover because I have to prepare soon for the finals. 6 more weeks left before the semester ends and probably my law school life. It really depends on how well I perform in the next few weeks. I'll just keep on studying hard and I'll put in more effort and just hope for the best. Hopefully, makakabawi ako sa finals and move on to the 2nd sem. When I was in college, I took always looked forward to graduating. Now that I am in law school, I'm not looking forward. I'm putting all my efforts in the current semester and just hope that I would still be a law student next semester. One sem at a time.
As for my midterm exam results, sobrang disaster. After so much effort and patience, I still failed. It really zapped all my confidence.
Here are some quick updates:
1) We had a sportsfest right after midterms. Our class did not win any sport but we won best attendance. Haha! :) It was fun even though natalo kami.
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2) We had a Persons and Family Relations Debate. We did not win the best speaker award nor the best memorial, but we won the award that mattered the most, we won THE BEST TEAM award!
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3) Midterm Exams Results
Nakakahiya ilagay mga real scores ko dito. Hehe. Pero to give you an idea on how disastrous it was: I flunked Philo (my score was less than 50%), Leg Res (kahit college, yung score ko bagsak pa rin) and Consti (High failing mark, D siya in college). Persons and Crim exam results arent out yet though there's no reason to hope that I passed those either. In other words, I flunked ALL my midterm exams
Oh well, bawi sa finals. Aral, aral, aral. That's all I can do. :)
Things just keep on coming
Midterm exams are almost over. I thought things would finally be peaceful for a while, at least until before final exams in 6 weeks time. Philo of law midterms was the order of the day. Well, I did not know anything. I literally answered the test with not knowing anything. I just guessed each item and employed the shotgun method. I am going to fail for sure and I've been becoming accustomed to failing in law school already. No amount of preparation seem to be enough to even make you pass. There's nothing else to do. Keep on studying and hope somehow, that I would manage to pass. That's all I can do. Just keep on doing my part.
Everybody said law school would be hard and of course, there are things that have to be sacrificed. I knew my gimmicks would be gone and my free time would all be cosumed studying. But there are just things that you can never anticipate to come. I never thought that I will not only have to go through all the demands of law school but at the same time, have trouble with my personal life. I never saw this coming. There's nothing I can do but just keep on living, keep on hoping that things will eventually fall into place.
"Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change things I can and the wisdom to know the difference."
Frustrations... Hold on... Hold on...
Midterm exams are almost done. Persons test was held last Monday and Crim was held last Friday. Only one major subject left and the rest are all minor subjects. I cannot believe that after all the hardwork and preparations in order to at least pass the midterm exams, I would still end up on the wrong side of the field. Tons of hours and effort spent in learning, reviewing and preparing for the exams were all done for nothing. I'm still going to fail. Whoever said that if you study hard, you'd get high grades was wrong. Try going to Law School. It does not work that way. The persons was manageable though it was filled with treacherous questions. I was expecting to do way better in Crim but I was so wrong. I feel that I did worse! Its not because I did not know the answers to the tests, its because the test was so long!! It was 21 pages and we were given 2 hours to answer and ascertain the facts of the different cases. It was so impossible to answer everything. Or it may have been possible but the answers would have been incomplete. Its just so frustrating and demoralizing that after months of hardwork and after days of intense preparation sacrificing everything, I still end up failing. I'm so frustrated.. I'm at the point of giving up.. I have to hold on.. I have to hold on.. There's still time to recover, there's still time to make up for the lost midterms. I just need to keep on believing on myself. I can do this, I can do this, and if in the end, I still fail, I cannot blame myself anymore. I did what I had to do and more. But I know that I can still make it. I can do this. I haven't failed all my life and I don't intend to start now.
Ostracized
My first midterms in law school is fast approaching. I cannot sleep anymore because I am so worried about it. Despite all the preparations, I fell that I will not do good. I cannot help but feel this way because I feel that no matter how much I study, it would not be enough.
I have been studying like there's no tomorrow the past few weeks. I have not been able to spend time with my friends, family and other important people. I feel so ostracized. I guess what everyone said about law school is true. Things are really different. Things become so hard. Everything comes with it. But then again, its not that bad. I never thought I would say this but I am enjoying law school despite all the hardwork and effort that I need to put into it. There is always something to look forward to every day. New challenges, new things.
No matter how hard things get in law school, there is always something bright. There is always something to look forward to. Despite the so many changes, things always have a bright side. :)
As I take my midterms this Monday, I can only hope that I would do good or fail with a high failing mark. That's all I can hope for. Whatever happens, I'll be there and just be happy.
So many questions
It's been almost 5 months since I have graduated from college. I used to think that I would live my life according to what happens. Where the sea brings me, I always go there. I bummed for several months after graduating. Enrolled in Law School after. And now, 2 months into law school and a big question is beckoning to be answered. Where do I go from here? I'm not sure if I want to be a lawyer. I'm not even sure if I have what it takes to be one and graduate yet again from the Ateneo. The only school I've been to and known since I was a little boy. Things seem so different. I am so lost. I do not know where I want to go. I do not know if this is the path I want to take. Everything seems so uncertain. For the first time in my life, I do not know what I want to do nor what I can do. The confidence I used to have with me is now gone. Now everything is a question for me. What if I did this instead of doing that? Can I survive? What can I do? Am I happy with my life?
I miss the times when I would just go to school and not think of anything else but having fun. But things have changed. Time has passed. Nothing is the same. It's like walking a long winding road without knowing the direction I want to go.
As I continue to live my life and desperately try to answer all these questions, I can only take refuge on this prayer. It's a prayer that has kept me sane in times of despair.
The Serenity Prayer
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.
--Reinhold Niebuhr
